Twirlie Withdrawal

So I wonder if I am the only person who goes through partner withdrawal? It is particularly bad at night. I think the experience must be akin to the phantom limb. You know, when your leg or arm is amputated but you still think it is there and then realize it is not.

Whenever D leaves – he is in Germany visiting a friend right now – I have this problem.

For instance last night I woke up in the middle of the night to claw my way across the bed to find him, but he was not there.

I wake up in the morning, roll over to snuggle and he was not there.

Often times wake up to me spooning his pillow.

It is all very odd especially in the half-haze of sleep.

It is also odd, because when he is here we are both amazed by the amount of heat we throw off and actually push away from each other. Now that summer is here we try to cuddle but end up bursting into flames.

Anyway, the next two weeks will suck as Twirlie has to stay in London to rehearse for a new West End show that he is going to be in. This is a good move for the career. But of course he had to pull out of the holiday in the US. This always happens with dancers/actors. No bloody idea when the next job is!

Anyway, I miss D. You’d think I’d be used to this after three years and him doing a lot of shows and things outside of London, but no. I still miss him.

~ by ctyke on June 12, 2008.